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People can't see that I'm trying to get back on track in life. I'm doing my level best to redevelop the trait of giving a damn. Even though I don't give a damn over some things since birth, I'm actually giving it my all to pretend. Its the next best thing. I mean people like being lavished with praises & showered with heart warming gestures. They don't care if it's insincere. It's either they're being oblivious to that fact or they're just too intellectually deficient to realize it. I'm thinking its the latter. Those who enjoy these sort of things are usually the stupid ones. That about explains it. Well, so far, everything's been running smoothly. Nowadays, I try to get involved in others conversations even though I have no interest in the topic. I also try to laugh at people's jokes even though they are lame. At least once a day I ask how they are, even though I simply don’t care. I lend them a listening ear when they need someo...

People mock me for having something of a scheduled life. I'm content with a routined life. Monday will always be Monday. Food is always gonna be something that fills up the stomach. There's nothing wrong with having the same meal every breakfast right? Change is never fine. They say it is, but it’s not. Even though that, I still say that I have a high adaptability rate. I get used to change after a while. At least faster than your typical average human being. It's unfavorable but some changes are inevitable. I'd rather not have to go through change given a choice. When choice less, I'd accept it with a heavy heart. I'm optimistic though. Because sooner or later, everything will fall into place again. The change would become part of the routine then. But why tamper with perfection? I know nothing's perfect but if its close to perfect, preserve it. Why disrupt the ebb & flow of something next to perfect? Having said all that, I'd prefer if we have 30 d...

I don't get all these political issues at work. I can't deny, it makes life more interesting. But come on, we're all humans. Nobody's perfect. We all have flaws. As long as your flaws don't affect me in any way, I can live with it. Even at times, when someone's flaws make my life difficult, I'd just move on from there & look towards a brighter future. I know, I'm more optimistic these days. Must be the new year. It affects me in strange ways. I've come to a point whereby I overlook people's flaws & accept them for who they are. I don't mean to make myself sound so great but yea, not many can boast of such an attribute. Of course, I'm not the only one who has that. But it's something only a handful could develop. No one is born with it. It's only with the right kind of nurturing that you will get it at some point in life. It's something like compassion. You don't get that trait automatically after coming out of your...

No doubt about it. It's time again for the 'conclusion to last year' column. 2012 was a wretched year for me. To sum it up in one word, it simply 'sucked'. There were more things that went against me than in my favor. Here are a few. I got charged for threatening & impersonation, my heart operation was a failure, i was banned from carrying firearm, I was made to pay singtel $1971, i was fined 100 dollars & the one I was looking for decided to ignore me, all in the space of 365 days. & to top it off, the world did not end as planned. There were good things of course but I can count them with one hand. I got to see, talk & take a picture with Julie tan. That's three & yea, pretty much it. Now, the highlight to it was, I managed to find out this person's(the same one who turned out to be just another to blacklist me) name & discovered her on facebook. What made her ignore me is still a mystery to me. Whatever it is, it involves a pa...