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So where do i go now? I'm directionless somehow. I'm practically dishevelled. I'm still coming to terms with the fact that the world did not end on the 21st. I was certain it would. It was like banking on Germany to lift the euro 2012 trophy only for them to be eliminated by Italy in the semi final. The heartbreaking feeling felt similar. & now, were just minutes away from beginning a new year that is 2013. I never imagined, in these last 6 years, we'd get this far. I still remember New Year's Eve of 2006. Even when the members of my group reduced with every passing minutes, we continued to roam town with the verve of a newly appointed mafia leader. I miss the old me. I miss having the guts to face any sort of challenge in life. At that period, I was actually still reeling over the conclusion that the world was supposedly coming to an end on the 21st of December 2012. But it was only on that particular night when I made myself forget about everything & do...

I hate who I've become. I'm a damn smoker. & now, I'm turning into a drinker. I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I wasn't even a passive smoker a few months ago. Yes, I would stop my oxygen intake whenever there were smokers around & then strafe away to a non affected area where I would inhale as much O2 as I could before I die from the lack of it. I'm picking up where I left off last year now. I had actually gone months without breathing narcotine into my system before I was enlisted. That was before I fell into the deep slumbers of you know what. You know, those butterflies you get whenever you're near someone special. Yep, I don't know what it is anymore. I actually never knew. But what I do know is I don't do stuff without a good reason. For this, I think all I'm trying to do is contain the sadness inside of me. I know I said this is a new beginning. The dawn of a new era. But I've never been known to practice what I preach. I...

My blog page hasn't been updated in a while. That's the reason why you see useless widgets of the expired kind. The layout & the background, I never did tamper with them. When I started out, it was like that. I know, they're hideous. But i don't care. Because the content is all that matters. Now, that aforementioned point is open to all sorts of interpretation. But I apply it to bitches & whores.The reason? Simple. What looks good outside is often not as good on the inside. Whores around the world could dress themselves as dolls & I would still label them as whores as long as they give me the perception they're only looking for guys for money. They don't care about giving themselves in return for cash or all the branded products they can have. That's pathetic. & I used think my life was pathetic, imagine that. You might have noticed, I'm updating regularly again. I'm rediscovering my love for writing. Quite rightly so since the worl...

I think most of you have the wrong perception of me. It's true, I can't blame you for jumping to that conclusion. Especially since it was me who portrayed myself to be apathetic & detached. Let me assure you, I am not like that at all. I was, WAS being the operative word there, like that only because I thought the world was gonna end in 2012. I was 17. I was juvenile, naive & handsome. I mean awesome, sorry. After reading the article six years ago, I was left distraught. That was coupled by the heartbreaking event which happened a few days before. Combine them together & you'd get the perfect recipe for self-mutilation. But I never considered that. I was stronger than most of the weak kids of this generation. So I decided to waste my life away. What a decision. How impressive was I? Immeasurably fantastic I presume. Truth be told, I just felt that it would be pointless to go on with life with enthusiasm & vim since I know it won't get me anywhere. Hone...

Hello people. We meet again. For one last time. I know. I sincerely apologize for leaving you guys hanging all these while. You see, I've been too busy to update. But I am finding time to craft this last entry. As we speak, I'm actually coming up with a plan to escape the apocalypse, if it happens. Today is supposedly the end of time according to the Mayans. I know. I've been looking forward to this very moment ever since I first read about it 6 years ago. That was when I decided to give up on life & just dwell along with time as it passes. Whether or not that was the right decision is still unknown to me. Or for the whole human population actually. Only God knows. If you still didn't know, in which case you deserve to die today, the mayan dudes foresaw something happening on the 21st of December 2012. That was why they decided to end the calendar we are using right now. I believe they came up with it like 5125 years ago. From what I read, they were a tribe which ...