Wooo

At the time I wrote this post, I was feeling down. So down mentally that it's affecting me physically. My hair would not stand up anymore even with a quarter of a bottle of wax. It's nonsensical. What God is putting me through. I've always been longing for someone. Someone to take pictures that don't mean anything with. Someone to sing to. Someone to sing to me. Someone to listen to the crap I write which I label as songs. Someone to write, the crap which I label as songs, about. Someone to have long conversations with at night on the phone without being seen by others as gay. I've only ever had long, late night phone calls with guys so I guess it's okay if people are skeptical of my straightness. But I'm straight. Also, when we have long late night phone calls, one of our activities is to call a girl & prank them. Tell me is that masculinity or what? It's been 5 years. I'm still struggling to move on. 'She's' made me hate the fairer ...

Countdowns are overated. But, well my 2011 started off quite memorably. Yeah I had to work but part of my job was to join in the countdown party & pop the huge confetti thingamajig at the crowd as soon as the clock strikes 12. It was the hugest confetti popper I've ever popped & it felt good. Of course I wasn't alone. A few of the other attraction operators were also there as we spread around the crowd. My boss also joined us. Even though the fireworks was the same one that happens every Friday & Saturday night, I kinda enjoyed it as it somewhat felt different. It's a new year people. I think it's changing me. I'm becoming a more appreciative person. But to hell with that, I gotta be a more positive articulative man. I wanna make 2011 a year like I've never had. Because there's only gonna be another year after that which is 2012 & then it'll be all over. I know I've never been one to believe in superstitious stuffs but i have my reas...