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It's so hard being dependent on people. I wish I have the ability to go through life's tests on my own, whatever the test maybe. As always, my plans didn't go accordingly. The damn cock up really ruined alot. How was I suppose to know I had to give the government my bank account number? Shouldn't they find it out themselves? Where's the sincerity?& who says just because I'm not 21, I don't contribute to the society? I maybe a burden to society but I believe I've contributed to it's well being ever since i was borned. Okay maybe I was exagerrating. I did more harm than good. But at least I contributed. I wonder who the hell came up with the rule. 21 to receive the gst offset. I missed like 800 dollars. That asswipe must have had a sad childhood. So I guess the ps3 has to be put aside for now. My one week of agonizing plan can't be accompanied by video games it seems. I even planned to skip work this whole week. Looks like I have to go back on ...

I got a shock, that would put all shocks to shame, today. It was the most shocking shock ever. No other shocks can top it. Not even pikachu's 10 million volts thundershock. Just when you thought you would be wrong, because you're always wrong & never right, you guessed it right. That feeling sucks. Who would have thought I would be right? & I was just giving a wild guess. Fuck my stupid life. Nothing ever goes my way. When it does, it goes right by me. Sometimes, it even bangs me out of the way. I guess I won't be seeing her again then. Plan ruined. I never should have planned. Again I curse myself for planning. It always end up hurting me. If I ever wanna see her again, I guess the only way is to wait for her at the MRT station near her house. But looking at how great life has been treating me, I'll probably miss her when she reaches. I could wait till midnight & I'm sure I'll never see her. Our paths won't ever cross. I heard a good way to get...

With everything going smoothly, I guess I should make plans now. Although nothing goes to plan. But next week, once I get enough dinero, I'm gonna get my ps3 console & spend the week behind closed doors. I'm gonna off my phone too just in case someone interrupts me when I'm playstationing or if someone from work calls me to replace them or there's last minute testing. If all goes well, I might even give myself an extra week of holiday while everyone makes their way back to school. I can't be bothered anymore. Maybe it's just an excuse. So that I won't have to try. & get her. It's actually a good way to drown your sorrows. 24/7 straight gaming. I remember when I first got my xbox console. I played for 20 hours straight. I didn't managed to get 24 because of my parents intervention. But for the whole week, it was just starwars & pro evolution soccer plus macdonalds in between & that didn't go well with my body. When it was too much...

So, I'll probably get a chance next week. But as you know, me & chances, we dont get along. We are like different magnet poles. I'm the positive pole while it is the negative. Okay maybe I'm being biase here. I'm perhaps the negative bastard. Chance here is probably the positive dude. Cuz im never optimistic about my chances. But then again, for the 2 millionth time, im saying it again, it's not a chance if you don't take it. It's funny. Yes. But I keep spurning those 'not' chances. When will the 'real' chance come my way? I wouldn't know even if it bit me on the nose. Maybe I'm just not a clinical finisher. Being the opportunist that I am, it's surprising really that I can't make the most of my chances. It always pass me by. I'm sure one day, it will come a time when all the opportunities dry up & I would be left lying on the road with my face down. I'm starting to like working at where I'm working right ...

I don't know what's wrong with me. Am I an alien? Or a robot? Or an unknown species from the thirdly fourth dimension? I don't know. I cant get the girl i like, I don't eat cheese & I don't like clubbing. Even the aforementioned things above have achieved some of those things mentioned. For the first time ever, I decided to give clubbing a shot & guess what, I didn't enjoy a single moment of it. I know guys should be excited & turned on at the thought of rubbing shoulders or to be more precise, private parts with high on girls who are on cloud nine elation. But just the sight of it, seeing other people doing it, turns me off. I can't believe those girls can be so easily caressed. They let guys all over them like it's their children who are seeking for attention. Im not really okay with that but I guess it's nothing new for those ladies. When I saw my friends doing it, I was flabbergasted. One even have a girlfriend already yet he's s...

Even though I've quit my hobby of 'deep thinking while smoking' at my balcony porch at nights, I still can't get an early nights sleep. When I was still doing that, my friends said that I couldn't fall asleep because nicotine intake before sleeping will keep you awake. Now, I find that theory to be a little bit of a bullshit crap. Because, I think the problem doesn't lie with the cigarettes but the deep thinking. Now, I don't smoke anymore at nights but my eyelids won't shut. I believe it's because I still do the deep thinking, only this time, on my bed. Hours pass by very fast. I'm not sure why but I think God speeds up the time at nights. I wish He would do it for the day time too. Back in the old smoking days, I'd would sometimes be acommpanied by emo songs. That would prompt the deep thinking which would last for a million years. If my cigarette burns off first before I finish pondering on life, my love life especially, I would take anoth...

Can it be more obvious? So far, the favorites or the contenders of the world cup has flopped. France still being shity ever since they won euro 2000, England still can't find a goalkeeper who won't make high profile blunders & Argentina who won slenderly & still very much unconvincing needing a defender to score when they have an array of great strikers. Germany are always underrated & their chances are always played down. But such a convincing opening win would only serve as a reminder to the critics they that they are among the elites. I remember 5 years ago in the confederations cup, Germany played Australia & just narrowly beating them 4-3. It was their first competitive game under jurgen klinsmann. That was the dawn of a new era. Their attack was impressive but the backline isn't. Australia, led by john aloisi in attack, keep coming back with their great determination equalizing every single goal. But Germany still triumped. They went out at the semis t...

I was thinking for this festive period, I'm gonna lie low & take things easy. I think some alone time will set things straight. I'm gonna disappear from everyones radar & be uncontactable. That way, I can concentrate on working towards my goal for this year. Playstation 3. People who take advantage of my kind heartedness will learn to appreciate me more. I couldn't care less actually. That is, I admit, a lousy & unambitious goal for an adult but I don't give a damn as long as I'm happy. It's gonna take days of working during the holidays but I've resolved to not give up on my goal. Not anymore. There's too much at stake. Plus, I've been putting off this goal for too long. I should have gotten my console two months ago but it just didn't happen. This won't be like all the other previous goals that remain unachieved till now. It'll be different. I actually planned on using the bursary money to get it but it's just too long t...

No one ever appreciates the things I do for them. Even when they're good. Ahhh. I'm sick. I'm down with something. I think it's fever. CUZ THE WORLD CUP IS HERE! The biggest sporting event in the world. No wonder I'm having this world cup fever. The evnt came at the perfect time. I'm on holidays now. Too bad though I have to work. But, I have planned out my schedule perfectly so that I won't miss Germany's games. It depends though on whether they kept to their word of scrambling the frequency of the transmission of Indonesia & Malaysia channels. It'll be like the police's radio frequency then. Everchanging so that no one will stumble upon or get to listen to the channel. Bastards. Now, my world cup watching spot is undecided. The location may vary I guess. 8 years ago, the world cup was broadcasted in front of my block at bishan. They screened it every night at the open space. I condemned the cc people for doing so. Because, every night it g...

I thought that bugger was exaggerating. He always does. So i gave him the benefit of the doubt. But when I saw 'it', the subject, with my own two deteriorating eyes last week for the first time, I called him on the spot & apologized for my insolence. He laughed. At me for not believing his words. That's his way of phrasing 'in your face" cuz he's too stupid to know those words exists. Yep. He thrives on other peoples misery. But who'll have the laugh? I'll say me. Because, he was just a visitor while I work with her. Hahl! I then put on my 3D glasses. I simply had to wear a pair to experience her beauty in 3 dimensions. For two months, i barely even knew of her existence even though we were in the same department. But I forgive myself because the damn attachment program delayed her inclusion in my life so it's not my fault. As always, the timing in my life is perfect as she first started working after I was attached out. Bummer. & during one...

If I write once a week, my blog would be flooded like the streets of Venice. Only difference is it's not a hazard to non swimmers. So instead of wasting your time & money visiting the stupid italian venue, why not just visit this site instead? Saves you time. Plus, you won't drown here. But, if you're feeling generous or crazy, I do accept any kind of donation amounts. Well nobody cares anyways cuz no one visits this site. I dont know why I can only express myself in writing. I guess I'm not the articulate man every woman dreams of. But when you read what i've written, you wouldn't have guessed that I wrote it. You wouldn't believe it was written by me. So how do we overcome this problem? Easy. I stop expressing myself altogether. What's the point when it's so hard. It's so much easier just to keep quiet. But sometimes, it hurts. At times, I wish that God would give me what is lacking. Self confidence perhaps? I don't know. If I knew, I w...